The wounds of the past resurface for the former leading figure of late afternoons. Faced with journalist Deborah Grunwald, Matthieu Delormeau returned to the complex mechanisms of guilt and addiction which mark his own personal journey. Viewing a sequence where Muriel Robin confided her fear of the comedian Pierre Palmade, a relative she saw “go into the wall“caused a real emotional shock in the guest. This radical distancing from the actress pushed Matthieu Delormeau to externalize an intimate drama to illustrate the legitimacy of the survival instinct.
“All her life, she will live with this” : a memory engraved forever in the memory of Matthieu Delormeau
The memory evoked by the host dates back more than twenty years, but remains forever engraved in his memory. “It makes me think of something I’ve never told…“first said Matthieu Delormeau with strong emotion. He then remembered the terrible tsunami that ravagé la Thaïlande in December 2004, a planetary catastrophe to which il a lui-même survécu narrowly. Evacuated to makeshift camps with the other survivors, he found himself sitting next to a mother, in a state of complete shock, whose testimony deeply upset him.
“When the tsunami came, she found herself with her child underwater. And at one point she couldn’t breathe, so what did she do? She opened her arms“he says. This absolute survival instinct unfortunately cost her baby her life, plunging her into destructive remorse. “All her life she will live with ‘I killed my child‘”he explains.
“I was mad at my friends” : the very personal confidences of Matthieu Delormeau
For the writer, this tragédie humaine perfectly sums up the complicated decisions that life sometimes imposes, to preserve one’s own mental health. He therefore draws a parallel with the attitude of Muriel Robin, forced to cut ties with a long-time friend, eaten away by his addictions. “Psychiatric work is to understand that life is ‘me first’. It’s human, you have to protect yourself.”analyzes the forty-year-old.
This reflection on the legitimacy of fleeing from danger also allowed him to make one’s own examination of conscience. The former host admits to having long felt resentment towards his own entourage who had tried to move away from him out of protection.I wanted my friendsand I regrethe admits. A late step back which gives him today the hope of forming a sincere reunion with those he loved.
